Sunday, March 26, 2017


saat aku lelah menulis dan membaca
di atas buku-buku kuletakkan kepala
dan saat pipiku menyentuh sampulnya
hatiku tersengat
kewajibanku masih berjebah,
bagaimana mungkin aku bisa beristirahat?
-Imam An Nawawi-

materi melingkar dua hari yang lalu.

paksaan dari Sultan Nuruddin Mahmud Zanki lah yang membuat seorang Shalahuddin Al Ayubi akhirnya ikut serta dalam peperangan. mengalahkan kebenciannya akan pertempuran dan pertumpahan darah, untuk akhirnya dapat menunaikan kewajibannya sebagai seorang muslim. dimana akhirnya ia menemukan keindahan dalam peperangan itu sendiri.

paksaan turun dari langit ketika nabi Muhammad SAW pertama kali bertemu dengan Jibril. ia dipaksa untuk membaca. didekap erat hingga sesak. memaksa diri untuk mengeja perlahan. amatlah berat baginya hingga ia meminta untuk diselimuti ketika pulang. bergetar dan pucat.

”Hai orang yang berselimut! Bangunlah, lalu berikan peringatan! Dan Rabbmu agungkanlah! Dan pakaianmu sucikanlah! Dan dosa-dosa tinggalkanlah! Dan janganlah kau memberi dengan maksud mendapat yang lebih banyak!”

kemudian paksaan itulah yang pada akhirnya membuat beliau kuat. hingga menjadi rasul pembawa risalah Islam yang kita anut hingga sekarang. merubah dunia.

paksaan adalah sebuah kepahlawanan. Ia serupa sebuah pertempuran melawan ego dan nafsu diri. awal-awal, bisa jadi seseorang dipaksa lingkungan. lalu ia memaksa diri. awal-awal jiwanya payah, jasadnya lelah. lalu terbiasa. lalu terasa nikmat. lalu ia mengaca, menghayati kembali makna keikhlasan.

beranilah. tegas pada diri sendiri. paksaan dalam hal positif akan membuatmu kuat.

karena Allah bersamamu, kan?

kekhawatiran tak menjadikan bahayanya membesar
hanya dirimu yang mengerdil
tenanglah, semata karena Allah bersamamu
maka tugasmu hanya berikhtiyar
dan di sana pahala surga menantimu

-Salim A. Fillah, Jalan Cinta Para Pejuang

Wednesday, March 22, 2017



I can say that this March goes pretty busy. and hectic. and stressful. and....its already 23rd March I cant even feel my legs standing on earth.

begin with a bright-new-6th-term, I chose two elective courses in hope that it can lighten my next 7th term. however, it turns out that this term is kinda messed up because we got bunch of homeworks and weekly projects every single week. to be honest, this is like my first experience ever having these kind of unstoppable academic activities. from drawing tractor, diesel, engine and pump parts and functions, having fun with pyrolysis, biodiesel and brickets, limitless analysis on gas compression refrigeration system, measuring students anthropometry on ergonomics..

well, at least we finally found the real usage of those abstract theories and principals that had been told last year. and a real implementation and application on agricultural sector, yay.

I also had some new working partners too in this year. meet my colleagues;

Departemen SERVICE
Kabinet Progresif FORCES

Akhwat Forkom Alims 2017/2018 

hope we can do our best this year!

last week was a 7-days-being-zombie for most of IPB Outstanding Student 2017 candidates. we were having a training for 3 days on 10-12 March and were given only 5 days to revise our paper work and documents. last Saturday and Sunday, we had an english test consist of IELTS and short-speech-test, and also a psycotest test. we were all got many revised documents as well as sleepless nights. But here I found lot of new amazing friends and working partners as well. good luck for 2nd-3rd April 2017, guys!

last Monday and Tuesday, Silvator and Zephyr Team from IPB got invited to a public release of Tanoto Student Research Award Competition. we met another groups from four Tanoto partner-universities (UI, UNHAS, USU, and ITB). on Monday, we visited PT Asianagro Agungjaya, which is a company working on Crude Palm Oil (CPO) processing field. it was an amazing experience to witness a real process on deriving goods from palm oil. it is true that all parts of this plant can be used as the raw material for various products. even the very-final waste can still be transformed into biodiesel and other biomass energy sources (just like ELP course told me weeks ago). 

on the second day, we had a chance to give a brief presentation on our innovation and introduce our research in gallery stand as well. Tanoto Foundation also invited some media and press in this event. we met a lot of successful persons; some Tanoto Foundation Scholarship awardee also came too.

okay, time for cooling engineering practical work. wassalam!

little traces


things accelerate quite fast these months. I have not even put any effort to write anything in the 12 weeks yet. 

from exams to I-have-to-put-a-best-effort-to-be-productive-but-failed holidays. new term with uncountable subjects and reports. new working partners. sudden-big responsibilities. fieldtrip (beach! finally). 

I have not decide which media should be constantly updated. not that eager to post things on instagram. my path is not working well, dont know why. and I cant stand a short update here --lot of things I want to share but sadly ended up not write anything at all in the past 3 months. this 'mager nulis' and 'mager ngetik' conditions often hold me up.

halah, excuse aja..

 I even left my locked-with-password diary application! not even a single word about what I do today, what I miss, the big events, how things-that-cant-be-told-to-anyone be going on.. it usually wrapped up in one notes. at least.

but nothing.


in my opinion; keeping track in what you do and what you feel everyday is important. because its not that easy to recall what you miss, your mistakes, your problems. and those little traces left behind.

might post some updates later. happy thursday!