First Trial

hello.

remember one thing I said on the last one-or-two-or-three post? I want to manage my time and take one or two hours each day to study.

repeat? okay. to study.

so today is the first time I try this. lol it supposed to be one or two days ago but I still found lot of things to do (or tweet) on internet. 

my friend said that Chemistry will hold an exam on the first meeting after the lebaran holiday. hasfjhaweurhsjkhdf. what a day. I still cant follow the lesson at class (my class only had one or two chemistry lesson, because the holidays always cut it), those theory on the books cant enter my brain....... hey, last time I study chemistry was 2 years ago. I dont know about the others. seems like they're all can understand those lessons about atom and their friends... gah. everyone is smart in my class. am I the only stupid one?

so tonight I forced myself to sit behind the table, open the chemistry books and try to summarizes it on my notebook. summarizes means I must read those theory, understand it, and write it again on my notebook. it just wasting time when you just copy all of the sentences on the book without read and understand it. just read the textbook then! 

there's lot of sentences I must read again and again to understand it. close my ear and read those sentences out loud. gaahhh. I'm really bad at chemistry. I even cant listen to the music while write it down --I often put my earphone while studying. its relax my brain and keep me from fall asleep. lol.but for this, I really need to focus and concentrate so those theory, numbers, and alphabet can enter my brain.

the result is ; 4 pages full of summarizes. on my own word, not what exactly written on the textbook. yay.

uh, I hope it wont erased --at least until this lesson test.

but one thing I know about myself ; I always forget something.

;____;

well, trying to write with english isnt easy. look, there's google translate tab on my chrome. lol. I've wrote with english before ; about 2 or 3 weeks ago. just once. I love being Indonesian! :p 

with these fail grammar and lack of vocab...... I need to learn a lot.

if I write this with Indonesian, it supposed be 15 or 20 minutes faster. lol. im not a member of eASY anyway (so what?) I wonder how my life(?) could be if I join that english club. with my oh-so-bad english skill, maybe I wont say anything in front of them. no words. just be a nice listener O:)

my mom already told me to sleep. its half past ten. and believe it or not, I'm sleepy. seems my nocturnal side is already gone. I must manage my sleeptime too --sleep on the class isnt a good habit. I dont want to be discovered twice. -____-

goodnight!